Hometown: Paniqui, Tarlac, Philippines
I am as I am. I am twenty-something (grr!) years old but there’s no point in denying that there are just quite a million things that I am yet to do and feel. I am no longer ten years old but I still feel like the world is a play. And I am still a terrible actor. I still forget my lines, and I still get confused with the rules of a sweet and broken smile. Even with such tragedy and comedy and everything else in between, I still believe in happy endings. I still believe that I am yet to find my own happy ending no matter how unimaginable it may be. Even though I’ve always felt lost, I just believe that I haven’t lost yet. I hope you get the idea. I am twenty-something years old but I still don’t hold the “conviction” to act my age yet because I still feel like an addict who hasn’t had a fix. I still romanticize the past. I still overlook the present. And I still hate thinking about tomorrow. I am still me.“I’ve seen the ashes in my heart,
I smile the widest,
while I cry inside
and my insides blow apart”
—my insides blow apart. i just love this line! because it happens, and I know not just to me but to anyone whose had the greatest fortune of keeping things. There comes a time when we are obliged to build a facade of indifference because we don’t want to interfere and be a disruption to someone’s moment. we smile the widest, while our insides scream otherwise. it happens.
